Better Off Alone

Tonight I sat in the dark and closed my eyes and thought about all the times you let me die. But what about the dog? You scoffed in my face and said not my prob. i just need a ride you're the only one around. You said you didn't feel well and left me to find another way. You’ve been having parties at your house? You’d know if you cared more. I went to see a movie with my sister. And forgot to invite me. I can't do this anymore again. And again. and again. Enough.

I decided to get to know the man you love. So one night, I broke into your nest and stole your house plant. I gave him water and sunshine and turned off the TV. We sat for awhile and talked about you. He said he didn't get it but I knew the truth it was you that screwed up. So I washed off his roots and put him in the ground. I let him come and visit when he learned to walk and we went to the mall he got a new look and even learned to talk. We even started taking field trips to the jungle.

A year has gone by. One year of silence but not of celibacy. you siren me closer but my heart kept me far away but a casual party seems just like the place to come and gloat and show that things have changed. Years gone by what have you done? Same old? 9 to 5? Mortgage? Making a nest and then flying home? ME? Half the weight and three times the charm with a heavy suit of armor so you can't harm.

I never trusted you. You’re a liar and a cheater and narcissistic psychopath and hows your mom? As if i care! That woman hated me! The truth is that you're just as neurotic as she is. What she says she don't mean. Just like you. Every time we talk things have changed. Today you're different. This time you're the same. Well guess what? It’s a year later and I’m 2.0 I’m new and improved. A year ago you were weren't smarter than a fifth grader, now I’m in college. Is that your final answer? Is this your lifeline? Wrong! You guessed wrong! You look like a fool in front of your friends who all look like fools in front of me.

What am I doing? I’m Iron Man at the Special Olympics. I don't need to show off. And even if I did, you'd have to look up to get my jokes. Progress report: F minus. You failed. We needed time apart and instead you fell apart. So I’m leaving. Not that you'd notice through the haze, and the booze, and the vomit. I thought I needed to grow up for you so I spent a year to become the man you wanted and all you did was show me I was better off alone.