Tonight I sat in the dark and closed my eyes and thought about all the times you let me die. But what about the dog? You scoffed in my face and said not my prob. i just need a ride you're the only one around. You said you didn't feel well and left me to find another way. You’ve been having parties at your house? You’d know if you cared more. I went to see a movie with my sister. And forgot to invite me. I can't do this anymore again. And again. and again. Enough.
I decided to get to know the man you love. So one
night, I broke into your nest and stole your house plant. I gave him water and
sunshine and turned off the TV. We sat for awhile and talked about you. He said
he didn't get it but I knew the truth it was you that screwed up. So I washed
off his roots and put him in the ground. I let him come and visit when he
learned to walk and we went to the mall he got a new look and even learned to
talk. We even started taking field trips to the jungle.
A year has gone by. One year of silence but not of
celibacy. you siren me closer but my heart kept me far away but a casual party
seems just like the place to come and gloat and show that things have changed. Years
gone by what have you done? Same old? 9 to 5? Mortgage? Making a nest and then
flying home? ME? Half the weight and three times the charm with a heavy suit of
armor so you can't harm.
I never trusted you. You’re a liar and a cheater and
narcissistic psychopath and hows your mom? As if i care! That woman hated me! The
truth is that you're just as neurotic as she is. What she says she don't mean. Just
like you. Every time we talk things have changed. Today you're different. This
time you're the same. Well guess what? It’s a year later and I’m 2.0 I’m new
and improved. A year ago you were weren't smarter than a fifth grader, now I’m
in college. Is that your final answer? Is this your lifeline? Wrong! You
guessed wrong! You look like a fool in front of your friends who all look like
fools in front of me.
What am I doing? I’m Iron Man at the Special Olympics.
I don't need to show off. And even if I did, you'd have to look up to get my
jokes. Progress report: F minus. You failed. We needed time apart and instead
you fell apart. So I’m leaving. Not that you'd notice through the haze, and the
booze, and the vomit. I thought I needed to grow up for you so I spent a year
to become the man you wanted and all you did was show me I was better off
alone.
This was... Beautiful. There was pain behind it, but it was beautiful nonetheless.
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